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Black Friday: Photo #212

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative, Family on November 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

My emotions spilled out today all over everything.  I was still out-of-town, visiting family, in a house-full of 20 people when I lost it and melted down.  The normal stress of the holiday combined with my grief over how different I thought things would be for me this Thanksgiving washed over my brain and I couldn’t stop [...]

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HealthCare: Photo #196

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on November 15, 2009 | 2 Comments »

Yay for doctors who spend 15 minutes talking to you before the exam and tell you to ”take your time” explaining everything that has gone on this year.  For a doctor who notices your new hair style though she hasn’t seen you in over a year.  For an OBGYN who says: “lets get your exam finished [...]

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Foggy: Photo #179

Posted in Contemplative on October 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

This is supposed to be a view of downtown and the Big Mac Bridge.  The fog covered everything today, including my emotions.  Maybe it will lift tomorrow.

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Self Esteem: Photo #172

Posted in Contemplative on October 19, 2009 | 1 Comment »

I don’t like myself much today.

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Trading Places: Photo # 151

Posted in Animals, Contemplative on September 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Sometimes I wish I could trade places with one of my cats for the day.  I stayed home –  couldn’t face the world today – life just seemed too hard.

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Melancholy: Photo #119

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on August 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Today the weight of my losses seems unbearable.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-W.H. Auden

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Apple: Photo #74

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on July 13, 2009 | 1 Comment »

Some days I feel like I’m slowly bleeding out, emotionally.  And the more blood that trickles out, the more numb my wounds become, which is a bittersweet phenomenon.  Today is one of those days.  So I’m trying to focus elsewhere – particularly on the fact that it looks like we may be taking a quick, bargain-basement [...]

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30 Again: Photo #57

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on June 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Today was my birthday and I’m kinda glad its about to be over.  I feel a little gloomy because I’m tired from the trip and wish we still had it to look forward to.  And though I don’t have any hang-ups about turning 30 in general, I do have hang-ups about turning 30 childless.  I wanted [...]

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Home: Photo #40

Posted in Contemplative, Random Fun on June 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »

It was good to see this today.

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Dark: Photo #38

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative, Family on June 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Despite a big family lunch and a loving visit from my sweet, sweet grandparents, I was feeling rather dark all day.  I think my hormones are still somewhat wonky and I didn’t get much sleep last night.  After an exhausting week of camp, all those factors combined to leave me feeling completely off my game.  I [...]

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