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Foggy: Photo #179

Posted in Contemplative on October 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

This is supposed to be a view of downtown and the Big Mac Bridge.  The fog covered everything today, including my emotions.  Maybe it will lift tomorrow.

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Self Esteem: Photo #172

Posted in Contemplative on October 19, 2009 | 1 Comment »

I don’t like myself much today.

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Trading Places: Photo # 151

Posted in Animals, Contemplative on September 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Sometimes I wish I could trade places with one of my cats for the day.  I stayed home –  couldn’t face the world today – life just seemed too hard.

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Melancholy: Photo #119

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on August 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Today the weight of my losses seems unbearable.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-W.H. Auden

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Apple: Photo #74

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on July 13, 2009 | 1 Comment »

Some days I feel like I’m slowly bleeding out, emotionally.  And the more blood that trickles out, the more numb my wounds become, which is a bittersweet phenomenon.  Today is one of those days.  So I’m trying to focus elsewhere – particularly on the fact that it looks like we may be taking a quick, bargain-basement [...]

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30 Again: Photo #57

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative on June 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Today was my birthday and I’m kinda glad its about to be over.  I feel a little gloomy because I’m tired from the trip and wish we still had it to look forward to.  And though I don’t have any hang-ups about turning 30 in general, I do have hang-ups about turning 30 childless.  I wanted [...]

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Home: Photo #40

Posted in Contemplative, Random Fun on June 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »

It was good to see this today.

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Dark: Photo #38

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative, Family on June 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Despite a big family lunch and a loving visit from my sweet, sweet grandparents, I was feeling rather dark all day.  I think my hormones are still somewhat wonky and I didn’t get much sleep last night.  After an exhausting week of camp, all those factors combined to leave me feeling completely off my game.  I [...]

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Photo# 32

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative, Family on June 1, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

We got three letters/cards of support in the mail today from my grandparents, Randy’s grandparents, and my first bestest friend, Mandi.  Though reading them caused me to loose it once again, they warmed my heart.  Knowing that so many people are thinking of us and hurting with us allows us to feel validated in our [...]

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Luck: Photo# 30

Posted in Baby Envy, Contemplative, Family on May 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

I was emptying out my pockets today before doing laundry and found this fortune in my jeans.  I got it at lunch on Tuesday about two hours before I received the call informing me of my impending miscarriage.  One of my pet peeves is when fortune cookie fortunes aren’t really fortunes  – just advice or [...]

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